Dear Hope: A Loner
i dont even know myself anymore. i skip school for 4 weeks, hoping somebody would care but none. and i feel so alone. i dont even want to live anymore. but i still love my parents. i love my sisters. but i have no friends here, i am so alone.
– a loner
Dear a loner,
I’m so sorry you are going through this, it sounds very overwhelming. This is a difficult time in your life and trying to understand it can be hard. It seems this has been going on for a while and it does not sound like it’s getting any better. You might be dealing with depression. Have you tried talking to your parents? It’s important to let them know what is going on. They may not understand what you are going through, but if you let them know you are very serious, they can work towards getting you help. You might need to see your doctor or get some counseling. Sometimes parents appear clueless because they have no idea what is going on in your life. They get busy and overwhelmed with life also. (Not making excuses for parents, but sometimes they just need you to literally spell it out for them so they can understand)
If you feel like there is no way you can talk to your parents then talk to a school counselor or a teacher. The thing is to keep talking till you find someone to listen. You deserve being listened too. This is not the life you are supposed to be living. No one should feel this way.
You need to learn to love yourself and to feel good about life. When we love ourselves and we are happy and confident we give off a good vibe. It helps when making friends and talking to other people. Think of it this way, you want to be the kind of person you would like to hang out with.
Things you can do to help:
You can journal- write it all down- Sometimes it can really help to just get all of your feelings out of your head. Let the stuff go, stop holding on to it.
Join a group or start doing an activity – Find a hobby- What are your interest? Find groups that have the same interests as you. You may not know anyone there, but it is a great place to meet someone and you will know you have something in common.
Try volunteering- This may sound like the last thing you want to do, but having to focus on something else takes the focus off of yourself. Volunteering releases stress. You can meet some really great caring people while volunteering.
I want you to understand you should not be feeling this way. You deserve a better life and a better life is waiting for you. Take the steps to feel better, it’s worth it.
Please know if at any point you become too overwhelmed you can always call the suicide hotline.
I’m glad you reached out. My hope is for you to be living the happy, fulfilled life you are supposed to be living.